2026-09-18
These past couple of weeks, I haven't made much progress on my text editor. Instead, I've spent almost every minute of my day binge watching tv shows while considering doing something productive only to watch another episode. I think this has something to do with my inability to sit and think about hard problems.
2 months ago, I started journalling in the morning which I like to think helped with my mental health but after the end of July, I stopped completely. I also started doom scrolling on Tiktok again which is probably the cause of why I can't go a minute without some sort of stimulation.
Now that I'm thinking about it, I also read and wrote quite a lot in July and also made quite a lot of progress on my text editor. I have 25 commits in July which is almost double the 14 commits in August and 12x more than this month with only 2 commits.
My attention span really is affecting how meaningful my days are. Which is why I've decided to hide Tiktok and Twitter on my phone (I'm not uninstalling Tiktok because I've got streaks to maintain). Anyways, I've also been trying to read and write more these past couple of days. I read like 10 blog posts by blanketfort alongside other people on bearblog. Besides blog posts, I've been trying to get myself to finish Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire and so far I've got to the start of Chapter 8 at page 81.
Reading is definitely much harder than scrolling but it feels relaxing for some reason that I can't explain. It makes life feel more mundane. I hope to achieve a mundane life.
That's pretty much it. Thanks for reading!